ive started writing again
its getting good
im in love with ingrid michaelson her lyrics <3
What if we stop having a ball?
What if the paint chips from the wall?
What if there's always cups in the sink?
What if I'm not what you think I am?
What if I fall further than you?
What if you dream of somebody new?
What if I never let you win, chase you with a rolling pin?
Well what if I do?
I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up
What if our baby comes home after nine?
What it your eyes close before mine?
What if you lose yourself sometimes? Then I'll be the one to find you
Safe in my heart
I am giving up on making passes and
I am giving up on half empty glasses and
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up
I am giving up
I am giving up
I am giving up on greener grasses
I am giving up for you
I am giving up for you
I am giving up
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
you go your way ill go mine i need to be free
ive never understood why the male brain doesnt function
like seriously i dont get it why is this so hard
and its dumb
blah no one even knows what im talking about
poop
Even if it's killing you inside, you need to stick it out .
Hold your head higher with every ignorant thing you hear.
Stick your chest out further with every hardship you go through.
Keep going on, even if it's destroying you.
Recovery is possible, even when seems so far away.
like seriously i dont get it why is this so hard
and its dumb
blah no one even knows what im talking about
poop
Even if it's killing you inside, you need to stick it out .
Hold your head higher with every ignorant thing you hear.
Stick your chest out further with every hardship you go through.
Keep going on, even if it's destroying you.
Recovery is possible, even when seems so far away.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
yea
I for real am so sick of meeting guys and them giving me dumb excusses on why they can't date me oh she's cool but its complicated or grow up your not enough we won't last I don't like you that much like if you know this from the start don't lead me on I hate it cause I get my hopes up to get let down I just want someone to be good enough for and like me for what I am and not tryingto change me all the time and just think I'm pretty just how I am and think my smile is amazing I want to be good enough for someone other then god I want to be in love for once and have my hald held out in public and people say god you guys are so perfect for each other and we smile and say yea
I want you I want all of you by myside holding my hand smiling up at you gives me butterflies seeing your smile brightenes my day and makes me smile your eyes such a perfect color your your the perfect person for me
Can someone write like that for me one day
I want you I want all of you by myside holding my hand smiling up at you gives me butterflies seeing your smile brightenes my day and makes me smile your eyes such a perfect color your your the perfect person for me
Can someone write like that for me one day
Thursday, March 19, 2009
urbandictionary.com
Brittney
the girl you are secretly in love with but, you cant show how you really feel because your friends are always on your case about her; teasing about when you two would are going to go out and something happened just recently and now you two dont talk very much and you appear to be slipping away from each other. Thats a bad thing because you 2 were meant to be with each other... no matter what. so save this. make the first move or you'll regret it the rest of your life.
you and brittney are ment to be
its fate
Brittney
the girl you are secretly in love with but, you cant show how you really feel because your friends are always on your case about her; teasing about when you two would are going to go out and something happened just recently and now you two dont talk very much and you appear to be slipping away from each other. Thats a bad thing because you 2 were meant to be with each other... no matter what. so save this. make the first move or you'll regret it the rest of your life.
you and brittney are ment to be
its fate
Monday, March 16, 2009
i havent writen in a while
so you wouldnt believe how happy ive been i feel so at home now ive stopped cussing i start my photography classes in may mon we and saturday thne school through the week and job its goign to be so hard now but i wouldnt want it any other way things are going so good i hope they never change like for serious if they change ill be so upset but if they change then thats how it is but im so proud of my self
i feeel better about myself my photography portfolio is looking goooood :D
i gotta get some sleep gezz
i feeel better about myself my photography portfolio is looking goooood :D
i gotta get some sleep gezz
Monday, March 9, 2009
yup
so im super stoked right now
like honestly ive decided to turn it all around im stopping cussing im really happy about it im turning my life around i just did so much stuff for my mom shes so happy im gald to see her smile it makes me feel good and then ive just gained probably the greatest friends ever there the best they make me smile listen to me and have my back im really glad there here then i so cant wait for church on sunday like im seriously so stoked about it then like school ive gotta get my head back in there bad and ive decided not to date just because i need to be in school and looking to god because i feel its right and im super excited about it i need to find a new job though because i feel the people i work with drag me down bad so im going to do that maybe next week when i got time to spare and im not a lobster any more
im so sunburt its so red it sucks ahaha fishing for five hours may have not been the best idea but its okay im alive and breathing still so its good
i think my anxiety meds is messing with me i have had a smoothie and a quater of a hamburger in two days which obv isnt good but i dont want to go back to the doctor cause hes going to give me a physical and thats plain weird to me but any ways back to my searching for god point
like tonight just thinking gosh i really need this and being lucky enough to have had a push when i needed it makes sense like im really down for this im really going to church evvery sunday and helping people like get god back in there life well not my brother because thats his choice and ill love him no matter what then ive decided to make friends that are sober and stuff im really excited like ic ant gosh this is getting so good i cant stop smiling right now this is the best feeling in the enitre world
i need to get some sleep though boy oh boy im excited !
like honestly ive decided to turn it all around im stopping cussing im really happy about it im turning my life around i just did so much stuff for my mom shes so happy im gald to see her smile it makes me feel good and then ive just gained probably the greatest friends ever there the best they make me smile listen to me and have my back im really glad there here then i so cant wait for church on sunday like im seriously so stoked about it then like school ive gotta get my head back in there bad and ive decided not to date just because i need to be in school and looking to god because i feel its right and im super excited about it i need to find a new job though because i feel the people i work with drag me down bad so im going to do that maybe next week when i got time to spare and im not a lobster any more
im so sunburt its so red it sucks ahaha fishing for five hours may have not been the best idea but its okay im alive and breathing still so its good
i think my anxiety meds is messing with me i have had a smoothie and a quater of a hamburger in two days which obv isnt good but i dont want to go back to the doctor cause hes going to give me a physical and thats plain weird to me but any ways back to my searching for god point
like tonight just thinking gosh i really need this and being lucky enough to have had a push when i needed it makes sense like im really down for this im really going to church evvery sunday and helping people like get god back in there life well not my brother because thats his choice and ill love him no matter what then ive decided to make friends that are sober and stuff im really excited like ic ant gosh this is getting so good i cant stop smiling right now this is the best feeling in the enitre world
i need to get some sleep though boy oh boy im excited !
Sunday, March 8, 2009
...
The end is such a scary place to start
everything is torn apart
and i don't know where to go from here
in the end, there's no reason to pretend
i know you won't be back again
i gotta find a way from here..
i don't know where i'll fall down
but i'm sure to hit the ground..
cause it's not over till it's over
every ending's a new beginning
one more chance to get it right
one more chance to get it wrong
its not over till it's over
sometime's nowhere leads to somewhere
and it all starts again
in the end
and it's such a scary place to be
everything is in between
and i don't know where to go from here
in the end i see it's all up to me
to figure out where i should be
im gonna find a way from here
i dont know where i'll fall down
but im sure to hit the ground...
never in my life do i think its hurt this much
you find someone whos perfect in your eyes imperfections and everything you see this light you cant get enoguh of and your not good enoguh your not enought to satisfy them your not perfect so your out you give it all you got and you end up looking stupid there all you think about day dream about they bring out the best in you and look where you end up
i feel it now
i was right im not good enoguh
why not i got everything brought out of me everything i needed back and gone in two seconds
where do i even go now
like seriously i tried so hard to be good enoguh being nice respect in all apprently i wasnt good enoguh obviously
everything is torn apart
and i don't know where to go from here
in the end, there's no reason to pretend
i know you won't be back again
i gotta find a way from here..
i don't know where i'll fall down
but i'm sure to hit the ground..
cause it's not over till it's over
every ending's a new beginning
one more chance to get it right
one more chance to get it wrong
its not over till it's over
sometime's nowhere leads to somewhere
and it all starts again
in the end
and it's such a scary place to be
everything is in between
and i don't know where to go from here
in the end i see it's all up to me
to figure out where i should be
im gonna find a way from here
i dont know where i'll fall down
but im sure to hit the ground...
never in my life do i think its hurt this much
you find someone whos perfect in your eyes imperfections and everything you see this light you cant get enoguh of and your not good enoguh your not enought to satisfy them your not perfect so your out you give it all you got and you end up looking stupid there all you think about day dream about they bring out the best in you and look where you end up
i feel it now
i was right im not good enoguh
why not i got everything brought out of me everything i needed back and gone in two seconds
where do i even go now
like seriously i tried so hard to be good enoguh being nice respect in all apprently i wasnt good enoguh obviously
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