yup

so im super stoked right now
like honestly ive decided to turn it all around im stopping cussing im really happy about it im turning my life around i just did so much stuff for my mom shes so happy im gald to see her smile it makes me feel good and then ive just gained probably the greatest friends ever there the best they make me smile listen to me and have my back im really glad there here then i so cant wait for church on sunday like im seriously so stoked about it then like school ive gotta get my head back in there bad and ive decided not to date just because i need to be in school and looking to god because i feel its right and im super excited about it i need to find a new job though because i feel the people i work with drag me down bad so im going to do that maybe next week when i got time to spare and im not a lobster any more

im so sunburt its so red it sucks ahaha fishing for five hours may have not been the best idea but its okay im alive and breathing still so its good

i think my anxiety meds is messing with me i have had a smoothie and a quater of a hamburger in two days which obv isnt good but i dont want to go back to the doctor cause hes going to give me a physical and thats plain weird to me but any ways back to my searching for god point

like tonight just thinking gosh i really need this and being lucky enough to have had a push when i needed it makes sense like im really down for this im really going to church evvery sunday and helping people like get god back in there life well not my brother because thats his choice and ill love him no matter what then ive decided to make friends that are sober and stuff im really excited like ic ant gosh this is getting so good i cant stop smiling right now this is the best feeling in the enitre world

i need to get some sleep though boy oh boy im excited !