this was

one of the best days of my life i was happy smiling i couldnt stop being happy it was amazing i had butterflies and my eyes watered with joy and it was the most amazing feeling i have ever had then i had to read that and it just went all away i couldnt breath i never knew people hated me so much what did i ever do im a good kid just cause i say the eff word alot and i dont turn to jesus everytime i fail myself doesnt not make me a bad person

does it?
i dont get why im thr bad guy in this why does it always have to be me i broke his heart im not good enough for him im not worthy enough for you is that it is it that finally im happy and its not allowed because everytime i turn around im not worshipping your god well im soory thats not me if i feel the need to pray i do to whatever if up there i dont care what it is im here hes there and i dont live to serve anyone i serve myself but i know hes up there i obey some of the rules im not like the anti christ for goodness sake


im sorry i cant change who i am im sorry ive been through to much to go back i know hes there and he loves me is that not enough oh wait its not youve got to get everythign out that you can ill never been good enough for a damn soul on this earth because i dont go to church every sunday i dont make god my number one in life i have to mkae a living while im here i cant justr expect him to make my life good all the time theres over a million people here ive got to make it on my own not look to someone else im sorry that i cant see the way you do we all have different lives nad different veiws so who are YOU to JUDGE me


you are not god

leave me alone let it go
im who i am
i refuse to change it
im sorry








FUCK