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im sick

of this im sick of being unhappy it i cant force myself to be happy im sick of worrying imsick of not being good enough and being scared im sick of being a girl and being treated different just because i have a vigina


its fucking stupid
im sick of feeling like im losing everything when its just me pushing it away
i want to be able to talk about my feelings and why im hurting so bad
i seriously feel right now my heqart got ripped out
for know reason at all awesome huh

idk why i have this feeling ihave no reason to i dont understnad anything anymore i just feel stupid all the time im useless im going no where in life whats that point to living after all


honestly i just want to sleep for like two days maybe ill feel better idk i want to get away go somewhere new and spend a few days gone i want my brother home so i know whats going on with me i want answer and no one can give them to me


i hate being unhappy and depressed like seriously and idk how to get happy
like make my self happy like being me isnt enough im never happy with myself i dont know how to be honestly


i need a consular
screw my life











gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


why cant i be happy normal 19 year old girl
why cant this be easy to go through




i dont wanna get hurt anymore
im sick of crying
:(