ive figured it out

want t oknow why i stay locked up inside myself
really i care about everyone but myself i dont care whats going on with me as long as everyon else is happy im okay thats how ive always been and i cant change it anymore i dont know what else to tell you if someone is upest im there if im upset i just push it out because there are so many people with problems bigger then mine so why should mine even matter whats the point to worrying about my problems i dont like talking about them cause there my problems not anyone elses and if i tell one person then they have to worry about me someone else then i stand in the way of someone else i hate being in the way of anyone i just push it all down and im okay then when i break down i can handle it myself im okay i feel as if i could fall apart and not a single person would notice cause im the happy one im never sad my lifes always amazing



WHAT THE FUCK

no its not
does anyoen not realize my dad left me when i was 3?
he gave up on me like everyone else has?
does anyoen not know i grew up with out money without anything ?
one mom and a brother no one else on my side but me im used to it that way no one knew the problems i had and no one cared and its okay its gotten me this far



im finally going to start letting feelings out
and im so sorry if you have to hear it
even though apprently im self centered
to bad i put everyone before myself



assholes







my bad if you have to hear me talk about MY PROBLEMS
they suck
whatever
im 19



not 30
later